My favorite holiday that's not REALLY a holiday...

Hurray!! Tomorrow is Halloween!! I love Halloween! Trenton is going to be Iron Man and we're going to the Cottonwood Creek Carnival in Allen. I've taken Trenton the last 2 years and it's always a BLAST! It's giant and they have so many cool things there. And it's only $5 for kids. Adults and kids under 2 are free. Each of the classrooms in the church has a different game, like ring toss or bowling or whatever and that's how they get candy. Then the gym and auditorium have bounce houses, basket ball, a mini kid-sized mechanical bull, etc. And, of course, outside are the inflatable obstacle courses, giant slides, train rides and whatever. It costs near nothing and we could stay for HOURS and never do it all. I'm not sure how it's going to go this year with me being 9 months pregnant, but I can always just sit somewhere if (when) I get tired and let the boys go play. I'm looking forward to it! I am HOPING that I get off work a little early so we can get out there ASAP. :) ::Crosses Fingers::

We bought 3 pumpkins at the pumpkin patch in Rockwall this year. One for each of us. Trenton painted each of them based on whose they were. He painted his like a little boy, Scott's like a "rockstar pumpkin". He finally got to mine last night. LOL. He is so funny. I got blond hair and blue finger nails. LOL. But it's beautiful, of course. He worked hard on it and had a good time. And painting them is so much safer than carving. And the pumpkins last longer. Granted, we waited forever to do them this year, but normally, I can have our painted pumpkins out all through October without them rotting.



On a completely different note...

Trenton broke my heart last night. He's 5. In kindergarten. Apparently, they went over fire safety yesterday in school. So we were sitting together, eating yogart last night and he was telling me all about what he'd learned.

Him: Mommy, if there's a fire in the house, we have to get out. But, don't worry, I'll wait for you.

Me: No, Trenton, if there's a fire, you get out right away. Don't wait for me. Go stand by the mailbox and I'll meet you there.

Him: *Complete Silence*

Me: Trenton, do you understand, if there's a fire you get out of this house immediately.

Him: *Bursts into tears* Mommy, I can't leave you. Who will take care of you?!

I soothed his concerns the best I could. Told him Mommy would meet him, but I'm much bigger and slower than he. I did my best to convince him it was a race to the mailbox. He then wanted to know where we'd live if the house caught fire. With genuine excitement, I told him that we'd get a NEW house!! Again, he sobbed.

Completely flabbergasted, I asked why he was crying now. He said, and this is an exact quote, "Mommy, I don't WANT things to change."

Hmmmm... THAT I found interesting.

He is not a whiny child. He doesn't really cry. Ever. Unless he does some boy thing, like falling down the stairs and thinks he can get a sympathy cookie out of me. He can. Lol. For heavens sake, he didn't even cry when he was born, lol. Always been a calm child. Breaking down into tears is a seriously abnormal thing for him to do. And he was SOBBING. Giant tears. I was so taken aback I didn't know what to do. And so I draw my conclusion as this...

We've been busting ass to get ready for this baby. Maybe I'm looking too deeply into it, but I think the little man who's been the center of my universe for 5+ years isn't sure how this baby thing is going to work for him. He has been VERY protective of me lately. And has been semi-clingy with Scott. He's been "Mommy's Man" for a very long time. And for a very long time (relatively considering his short life up to this point) it was just he and I. That quite a bit of attention for him to suddenly have to share. We've gone out of our way to do fun things with him without mentioning the baby at all, but maybe we aren't doing a good enough job. I dunno.

I do know that SOMETHING was going on with him last night and he lacks the ability to fully express what he's really thinking or feeling.

::Sigh:: And so now I feel like I'm neglecting the love of my life by simply having another child. So complicated.